小雪在說話

2008.10.07 Tue. Toronto 8~17 Sunny & Cloudy

Toronto arrived. It becomes cold though it is not yet winter.

Hardly but was awake for a movie on the plane this time.
Toronto to Asia is really a long way to go.
“What happens in Vegas” was supposed to be a comedy but I wept in the ending part.
About marriage –
it is not necessary to be with the one you are really familiar or you think you love.
About misunderstanding –
it takes place everyday everywhere.
About makeup –

Another three-hour conference call is coming tonight so I get on line earlier. It is again a busy and exhausting day and I feel upset somehow. But I will be fine afterwards anyways. Such is life – no one can escape from the disappointments and sadness out of the daily routines. We may not suffer every day but it does happen occasionally.

It took a while but finally I realized – no matter how arrogant you are and how rudely you behave, I am the one to decide if you are somebody or just nothing and if I shall kick you out or invite you in to my world.

Here is the final decision – let’s say “sayonara” to each other and it is end of story. Going forward, we are just two parallels that should keep a fine distance in between.

Am I blind? Maybe I was.

However, it is time to wake up. There is no point to continue a fault.

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Just got rid of the endless emails. It is 2:45am. I started to doubt if I am too inefficient so that I keep myself work late? Anyways, it is always wise to run away and get a breath before hating someone or something. This is the secret that I keep my energy and interests to life.

Today, sales returned from SFO so the office became very noisy again. I would prefer to work in a quiet environment if I can choose. However, to work as a product marketing manager, it is almost impossible to live alone without the crowd. Well, such is life and I am just an ordinary human being.

Unusually I worked in the office late today. Had a dinner with JW and chatted a lot. It is good to have his company. Tough questions are not always with solutions but I feel much better to have someone to share with and to be understood. We are like brother and sister and I appreciate his kindness. I am sure I will be missing him a lot after I move over to Toronto.

Not sure if I really like the way I manage the requests and questions. Sometimes I feel I am too much in love with work. And what will be paid back to me? I have no answer for myself either. Do those people know I work so hard to satisfy their wants and needs? Or they just take everything for granted? No way to check it out but I have to be responsible to myself. This is what I have been recognized….

Got to go to bed now. Another concall waits in the early morning….

Good night to the ones I care about!

Yet fully recover from the serious cold, I went for a customer meeting this morning. Though, it was fun to talk to some new faces. It is the most interesting part of the job to meet different people in different places. We all are human beings, live with 24 hours a day, and usually lead a regular life with routines in one place. It offers me a fair reason to travel around the world meanwhile being paid. Sometimes it is challenging and tough, but such is life. Everyone has his/her own topics to worry about for the life.

I have been spending a lot of time working and so far enjoy pretty much. The lesson to me ahead is if I want to make friends with the customers and colleagues. I tended not to do so before because I really wanted to keep my privacy somehow, but Sophy broke my rule. She is such a nice and generous person. Though she is younger than me by 10 years, it is a fact that she takes care of me most of the time. We do not always go out together, but I know whenever I need someone to talk to, she is there.

I am lucky in making friends, I think. Time to time, I make a lot of friends with the customers and colleagues all over the world. Distance does not matter much though we may not see each other often. However, sometimes I have to hold back with some people because they may never become a friend to me. It will be all in vain and eventually painful to make friends with who lives in his/her closed world. Running away as soon as I can is what I need to learn before I am considered as a naïve and silly person.

Do not know why but just want to put some notes on the topic today. It is wonderful to have a friend like you, but the world will continue to run if I leave you alone…. We are friends only when we both care about each other…...


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